Awake...?

I know it's late.... I wish u knew so much but time did not wait... God knows why the the hell I'm texting u at this hour but I really miss you.. I miss everything ...been so many years apart but nothing has replaced u till date.. Ur awesome!! Just wish I could turn back time.. Too wake up from everything.. Or just to get over you n to get some sleep.. I drank a little to much tonight.. Ur all over my head.. I'm sorry for everything and today ... Thank you for all the good memories.. Stay awesome... No one can ever replace you in me...

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Wish upon a star up so high as it flows
Gasping for air while watching the stars glows
Counting every beat of my heart that slows
Holding on tight while your last breath blows

The depth of your words seems so hollow
Chasing your dreams on a path so narrow
Capturing your heart with a bow and arrow
Yearning to hold someone’s heart tomorrow

Don’t say anything because everything had twisted fate a little more
Be firm with what you say maybe girls will come by to say hello
Threatening burning flames felt right from the core
As I wish when you read my poems it will never be a bore

Writing up on a piece of paper that someone tore
Wondering why actually I'm up this late tonight for
Narrating an endless story with so much awe
Hoping this life actually doesn't end with a war

Seeking for someone who genuinely stays and not like the wind
Driving across the desert to seek what many yearn to find
So it literally shows that the love I'm proving need not to be blind
As long as one person could feel it through their heart and mind

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I have avoided everyone for you
In return
You have avoided me for everyone else

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I only closed my eyes every night to dream of you
Your eau de toilet caresses my thoughts and mind
In your voice that leads the blood to my head
Something that nurtures faith that sunlight dues in hours

Alone are just words but loneliness expels an emotion
Where destiny is un-narrated, fate was published
A fear on the outcome that might satisfy the reality
Love is only an emotion that is left to be compromised

Passing codes that denotes nothing but errors
Cold nights, thorning springs, sores in mattresses
Cursed routines, weeping shadows that yearns for love
Resentful hopes for love shall penetrate through darkness

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Being like a tenant who has been renting
Without any second thoughts or even regretting
Mistakes teaches us what we have been forgetting
Your ignorance showed a doubt what I least was expecting

My intention in the heart that now you bore
Because the pain that you've caused had no cure
Trying to prove to everyone that you’re so innocent and pure
A pool of lie that even stops a ship reaching the shore

Try living out of space without air
Your know that this writer has no flair
Quit thinking your thoughts are so rare
Remove that fake mask that you always wear

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Listening to many hearts filled with sorrow
Making their hardest decisions in life of whom to follow
It’s like been drowned in an ocean that is shallow
Biting hard on your tongue that makes it hard even to swallow

Returning everything that I never thought I borrowed
From words to actions that has conquered my heart so narrow
I was responsible for the words I said even when I couldn’t swallow
Look through my heart now why because it’s so hollow

What we shared was two hearts that became one
What was left was that one that has turned to none
Finding and amending the pieces that now are all gone
Whom to be blamed because there is nothing I had done

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❤️‍🩹 There is a part of love where it makes you sleep peacefully ❤️ and then there's another that brings nightmares 💔

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I was suppressed as in a can of beer
And if you just stopped being so near
I would just throw away all the fear
Just feel your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me in a pool of tears

Couldnt find a therapy to heal
Rubbing salt is the only thing I can feel
Running down my spine oh so chill
Seems like paying debts that never had a bill
Leading to a trail of which was so real
Ends in a coffin or maybe a drug or pill

There's just too much to bare at my sight
Even when the sun seems so bright..
The door of heaven shows there's a greater light
Standing by a window waiting for the sun to see the night
Reaching out to the moon-seems like nothing right
Better still to keep my distance from you I might

Someone calls me in the evenings
They come behind just to find what I'm earning
Thought I wrote it wrong thinking it should be yearning
More like paying a price for a being a human being

Homeless and stranded by your resonating light
Now that I'm being bound by your sight
Shredded fine where it haunts my once pleasant dreams
The words you said chased away everything it seems

I've lost something that I don't yearn for again
But reliving those moments reinvents pain

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A FINAL SONG, A LAST REQUEST
AN INNOCENT HEART PUT TO THE TEST
THE WHOLE LIFE WAS ONCE IN A MESS
A PERFECT CHAPTER FINALLY LAID TO REST

I TURNED MY HEAD TO THE WEST
LOOKING OUT THE WORST FROM THE BEST
IT’S JUST TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE MY NEST
PUTTING TO SLEEP AN EXCRUCIATING CHEST

SINCERELY OWING YOUR WORDS TO KNOW I WAS A PEST
SAYING YOU WOULD NEVER LOOK GOOD EVEN IN A VEST
BEHIND BARS YOU WOULD GO AFTER BEING GUILTILY ARREST
DON’T WORRY EVEN THAN I WILL COME I HAUNT YOU LIKE A GUEST

THE NIGHT WHEN I WAS BEGGING YOU NOT TO LET THE SUN RISE.
IS WHEN YOU WOULD REALIZE THAT EVEN A GIRL LIKE ME CRIES
I HAVE GIVEN YOU ENOUGH AND YOU JUST HAD TOO MANY TRIES
SORRY TO SAY YOU’LL BE THE VICTIM AT THE VERY SECOND MY HEART DIES

BELIEVED YOU AND YEARNED FOR YOUR TWO POLES OF LIES
PLAYING A DECK OF GAME ON ME WITHOUT EVEN USING A DICE
I’LL STILL WHISPER YOUR NAME FOR YOU HAVE TO PAY THE PRICE
THUS REMINDING EVERYONE THAT YOU WEREN'T LIKE OTHER GUYS

LOOKING ABOVE ME AND SEEING THE CEMENT ON MY GRAVE DRIES
WATCHING EVERYONE AROUND ME WEEPING AND MOURNING WITH SIGHS
HEAVY DOWNPOUR AND THUNDER STRIKES BASHED DOWN FROM THE SKIES
SHOWING EVERYONE THAT MY SOUL HAS REST IN PEACE TO THEIR EYES

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I wish you knew it's all empty and hollow
The smile I wear covers the tears I swallowed.
The girl you knew in the past is left in sorrow
Rewinding memories for she does not want a tomorrow

I wish you knew it's all sore and teary
For the puddles in the eyes turned blurry
The grounds cracked but everything was kept buried

I wish you knew it's sinning and painful
Its a hard life to always remain a fool
This deed won't kill, but torments a soul
Turned her heart from pure ice to coal

I wish you knew your presence haunts
As if bounded with unlocked chains
Trapped in the mystery with no treasure
Underrated the stages of life left unmeasured

Just when I am surrounded all alone...

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