You will never be proud of me

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I am not sure
If I am on the shore
or deep inside the waters,
For the currents don't bother me
Breathing easy
Being lazy as else would deem
I wonder what it's all about
without an ounce of urge to know
I feel unfazed,
And ready to face
whatever the hazy race in time holds.

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A burnt paper, a dried flower, a dragonfly wing
We burn with passion, are lively with emotions
and sometimes we fly getting all high
Only to fall deep and realise
That it was always possible;
We crumble and grumble,
get crushed and shushed,
swish and vanish
Just like a snow crust.
And of all the fragilities,
Life is the most fragile thing a human can hold,
Handle with love, care and kindness-
So does the label beholds.

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After a while
I return to a place where words never rest,
A hub of restless souls
resting in peace in spaces and phrases
Faded semblance of my way through words,
My fingers drag through and halt in slow motion
Familiar place painted with new feelings,
I feel new;
Learning to speak again.

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I might forget myself,
Before I understand myself.

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The pain in you and the way you hide—
I saw it gushing in your eyes,
Unrushed through your unshed tears
Your sealed lips sounding fine;
I understand, you are strong
But it's wrong when you think
you are the only one breaking
You hold your emotions high
So highly hidden, unridden
It's unreachable and afar—
Distant you are, holding yourself higher;
There I am like a mirror,
showing my weakness and sadness
and you run away from them all,
Overlooking my existence and emotions
Fearing to face your facades,
you wear a mighty crown
Clowning my brimming frown—
Ignorance is bliss;
But it wasn't,
neither for you, nor me
The pretense you presented
set the preset in me,
Distanced I am despite the tensed stance
I see this; I see you
I will hold myself till I break open,
Stranded in emotions,
I have been dead, unmoved, unseen and untouched
Life was unreal;
I free myself to feel the unfelt;
Hear the hurt, and heal the undealt
I hope, you too will break free
from the created prison you broke into,
It's painful to watch your tainted pain
playing saintly gains.
Step out and so into.

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A terrifying dream wakes us up from sleep,
A terrifying life wakes up us from living in dreams.

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Life; after death

Treading towards death while living,
fully aware of the ticking clock
"Don't worry about us,
we will be okay, " is what I assured,
in response to your worry
I saw a moment of hurt, and a big pause—
I flashed at your face
A time of your non-existence
Didn't I? A bit too harsh and bright
Despite my soft voice,
I saw it dig draggers in your heart,
And big somersaults in your head
It slowly dawned on me,
How conflicting that can feel
Relived that things will be fine,
Also, a whole feeling of insignificance,
As if you didn't mean anything at all...

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When you are weak
you want someone else to be strong,
But when you pretend to be strong
You wouldn't want anyone else to be weak.

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Distraction is a way of living,
where we don't really have to live.
We are just dying little by little.

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