"Kaagaz ki Kalam"

Kaash mere paas ek kagaz ki kalam hoti,
Usse main syahi par kuch likhta...

Main jitna likhta syahi mujhpar utna chadhti...
Anjaan usse jo main likhta wo padh na paati...
Aur ek din aisa aata jb main usme sarabor ho jata...

Sarabor usme...ya to rangrasiya kehlata...
ya phir kalankit ho jata...




Par ek baat ka shukr zaroor rehta..
Ki jo bhi maine likha tha wo raaz...raaz hi rehta...

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Blooming in the utmost odds (the only option)
Falling to the bottom I found a new horizon...
When all failed to understand my goal
You understood me (i thought...)
Yet you proved me wrong (as always)

And its all here now!
Here is the scent of my success,
I believe it is reaching u as fresh (unless you rot it)
as that tip of ice berg newly formed
when you forgot to look down under it!

In all that chaos i've been through,
I somehow found an ephemeral station
to feel the placidity of this cool breeze
Of yet so lucky moments earned!!

Here I stand as ripe as promised...
I proved myself and hold my head high now...
Yes! before the end of the year, I kept my promise,
You know its just a glimpse of my worth,
But dear m much more than that...

Alas! I missed that reaction...
Trapped in the extreme negatives
and positives (ambivalent)
counting the complex numbers hidden
in that simple number line...

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You know what you've done...no need to go in depth
I told you, you'd be only SORRY now if I fuc #@ng step
I'd laugh while you weep!
How does it feel now?? huh, funny ain't it??..you neglected me
Did me a favor...although my soul free you've said
But a special place for you in my heart I have kept
Its unfortunate but its.....

How did i feel like when I bend over backwards for you...
all you do is laugh at me...Cause that isn't good enough!
you expect me to tear myself in half when you snap...wow!

Don't I give you enough of my time??
Each night with you!...for you!!!
You don't think so...do you!
Just go jealous if i spend time with anyone else!

Why am i stuck on you still man I don't know!!!
And here you are ready to marry someone else!!
and make them famous
And take away there freedom like you did to me
Treat them like you don't need them!
and they aren't worthy of you!
Feed them the same shit you made me eat..
Its ridiculous! Just ridiculous!!!

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I don't think she understands the sacrifices that I've made!
Maybe if she had acted right my patience would've stayed...

But I've already wasted over half of my life I would've laid...
Down and died for you and I had cried for you
No more pain cuz you!
Took me for granted...
took my heart
and ran it straight into the dump yard
and Into the dirt I can no longer stand it...

Now my respect I demand it !!
And what I mean is that I will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out of how this much you owe me!

I gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you while I've stayed
Faithful all the way...this is how I fu #&ing get repaid???

Not even once say you appreciate me I deserve respect!
I've done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness!

And I know that if I end this I'll no longer have nothing left!!
But you keep treating me like a staircase its time to fuc* #n step...
into that state of mind I wont be coming back so don't hold your fu@kin breath!!!

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तेरी ये अदा भी भा सी जाती है मुझे...
जब तू वक़्त निकाल कर मुझे इत्तला सी करने बस आ जाती है...

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Lost in the thoughts i call out for you,
Living this hell of a life just to see you...
Carrying this heavy heart makes me feel light,
May be i am wrong or May be i am right...

I have fought with the crowd, i have fought with the rains,
I have fought with the cloud until it drains...
Call me for my sadness, Call me for my madness,
Call me for my sorrows enchanting their acuteness...

Courage is atypical, many do lack!
Its easy to let go...Its tough to hold back!
You think you are happy but
Its an escape, its a mirage...
Its just a way of consoling yourself...

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Making a bullet out of Love she shot me...
Craving for independence she doesn't want to be set free...

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Sab tumne hi kaha hai
Maine to kuch kaha hi nahi...
Sab tumne hi kara hai
Maine to kuch kara hi nahi...

Shaant hun ye sochke
K tumne hi to kara hai 😅
Ya Shaant hun ye sochke
K maine abhi "kuch" kara hi nahi...

Kuch kar jaane kuch ban jaane k liye hi
Is mehanat se main dara hi nahi...
Aur tum ye bolti ho
K maine tumhare liye kuch kara hi nahi...!

Kabhi haste the kabhi ladte the
Aajkal aisa bartaav hai
Jaise hamne saath me
kabhi kuch kara hi nahi...

Jab jaadu tumne kiya...
Paas tum aayi...
Saath maine diya...
Jab yaad tumhe aayi...

Tab bhi sab tumne hi kiya tha
Aur aaj bhi sab tum hi kar rhi ho
Dosh mujh par aata hai
Jaise sab maine hi kiya ho...

Chain tumhara cheena tumhare apno ne
Chain mera cheena meri apni ne
Dosh phir bhi mujhpar aata hai
Jaise maine hi sab kiya ho...

Duniya me kitne ajoobe
Par Tumse pyara koi bana hi nahi
Kehene ko tum kissa khatm kar rhi ho
Par ye bta dun ki maine to abhi "shuru" kara hi nahi...

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Love should persist in every thick and thin,
Be it a calm lake or a livid sea...
Love should intensify with every wave,
not just for love & happiness but sometimes for protection
for which the chosen one won't let you drown...

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Zindagi me ye jo mod aaya
Ki zindagi kat nahi rahi hai...
Mana Door hun tumse
Par ye to na bol ki kadr nahi hai...


Berang Beswaad sa safar nazar aata hai
Mana zindagi ki khushboo me itra nahi hai...
Aajkal lagta hai chai utni garm nahi hai
Par ye to na bol, tere peene ki fikr nahi hai...

Har alfaaz me...Teri har yaad me...
Uchhalne koodna koi jurm nahi hai...
Teri har adaa ek bachhe si jo lagti hai
Lagt bachpan me jaane ki koi umr nahi hai..

Pyaar dil se hota hai,
uski koi jaati dharm nahi hai...
Besharm itna hun aaj,
k koi sharm nahi hai!

Tu ro Tu lad...
Tu yaad mujhe yun jo karti hai...
Maana aaj tujhme wo sabr nahi hai
Par Ye to na bol k meri kadr nahi hai....

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