My legs tremble and my palms sweat,
I struggle to breath and for a moment I cease to exist,
Near, far, here and there,
I look for an escape everywhere,
Chaos takes over the brain,
and anxiety kicks in.
Interactions get overwhelming,
and I cannot do a single thing.
Over my mouth, I place an invisible hand,
when deep down my voice is waiting to be heard;
Another day, another moment,
My anxiety keeps me from enjoying things I should.
With time, it gets louder than ever,
Every word is a cry of despair,
To the world, I look calmer as river,
But anxiety wraps me up tighter and tighter,
Heartbeat just rises higher and higher;
Until I get on to the verge of being ripped up into pieces,
Those are the moments I get to choose,
to cling onto someone’s presence,
who can be my safe space,
who can bring my soul to immense solace,
And you do that.
When the whole world is spinning around,
You bring me back to stillness;
You really do.
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