I and death were a feet apart
When I said "No"

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People often ask me, Why him, of all?
Dust I may have become but
Yes, yes, I can recall it still.
For that to be answered
Do you know me at all or nill
I'm the black sheep, the odd one
Weird, arrogant, insane, deviant
Freakish, quirky, prodigious, oddball.
And he, 'bout whom you ask me
Was the only one who knew "me".
and probably the only one who ever will
Same set of songs, same books
Same sports and same desires(dZRs)
Not only he had the desired skills
Also pretended to h've had same will
love, libido, the hots, all with zeal
wants, desires, my whole couldn't suffice
They could see it in my eyes and I
wonder you ever did, you ever will?
was gaslit, he played the drums, I
danced at his whims, maybe I do still.
forgive, forget.. somethings I never will
calling off I do want you all to know
I did love, I do still & I always will.

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Do you remember me, like I do you!
When you hear Ed Sheeran or Adele
Or you see an affectionate gal;
Indie music be it Cold/mess, Blush
Or "somewhere only we know"..
Do you ever get to reminiscing
as you open a book mentioning Gandhi
Hannah Arendt or Simone de Beauvoir.
When you apply the nightcream
or lipbalm of my favourite brand;
Across the town you wander and
Recall what a snazzy savvy I were!
Thy celebrity crush, ooh her figure
Does it remind you of my anatomy?
Darlin', hope you'll remember me
whilst hearin' Enrique's
🎶🎶 "Somebody's me"🎶🎶— % &

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Me and thee

Thou knew me like nobody else
Thee knew who's my favourite poet
Knew mine favourite drink
and How I did like mine tea
Thee knew whom I feareth
and who did I loveth the most
Nobody could ev'r know me
Thou understood me much well
Haply wherefore I was thy captive
I was a masochist whom thou
Knew very much well, and no
Nobody shall know me like you do!
— % &

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Someday, maybe one day....

I'll find out, why o why
every inch of my body, conscience
Was ruined and wrecked by thou
Why would thou hurt and wound
a kind hearted girl and why
did you maim my charming face
Why my beautiful hands were
Destined to turn foul and why
You fucked up the gem which
Others pray to get one, maybe
I'll look up to the spirit up above
Ask why they let the monster
Eat up the virtuous soul of mine.
Someday I'll get to know myself,
Maybe one day I'll get to know myself!
— % &

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You say you've seen the sunset,
nah honey you haven't been down yet
What did you say? You've been broke,
seen the defeat, felt the heat
nuh-uh, not until I play my beat
You say you're gonna show the king kong
by breaking me down, giving me chills
This time you won't be back on feet
for you'll see miss King-Kong playing the field!

— % &

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The way that I've loved you,
Only a masochist could ever love such a narcissist

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Can you forgive yourself?

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And when at last you find your one,
Whom you feel you can pour out
Your soul, your emotions in ton
Traumatised, jolted, broke you'll be
For your one will have you shun
You'll lay down your life, a step at one
Won't receive same love in return
End of everything sure it'll feel for he
Turns grudgingly unwilling, lackadaisical
whom you thought your "My One"

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I'll be gone soon, I promise.
Just like the hat you bought
But never wore and now
You can't find it anywhere
The dress you see at a shop n
Recall that you used to have
A similar one but now it's not
It's not in your wardrobe,
It's just gone, it's lost
Just like my memories were
Erased, lost and gone for good
I'll be gone honey, I promise!

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