The next time I come back
I know there will be a ring on your finger
Forever joining your name with someone else

The next time I come back
There would be nothing to bear
All stakes forgotten, just another notch in your gear

The next time I come back
There will be nothing to miss
Cuz all will be forgotten
Just those old memories lying deep
- Ananya

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Laying down in bed together
Holding each other
I saw my world in your eyes
And I wanted so badly that you feel the same
But I knew that was all but a fairytale.

The person for whom I started writing
In the first place,
but today I put my pen down
Because I think finally the story has come to an end
With moist eyes which you didn't see
I say goodbye to the love of my life.

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What's the point behind anything
When everything has to end one day
Why do we keep trying
Even after falling down
We get up and try again, and again
But what is the point.
Are we just scared to be lonely ?
Even when we know everything is so temporary
That they will all leave one day
And you will have to start fresh
From picking up the pieces
To forming another new, meaningless bond
With meaningless people who will again leave,
And the cycle goes on.
What is the point ?

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A year has passed and it still feels the same
Like everything had just happened yesterday
Yet a lot has changed, especially the people around me.
New faces trying to fill up the spaces,
That were left empty when the old ones left
But, everything comes with a price
Even the people around us
No one is here of the kindness of their heart
Everyone wants something and the moment they get it
They leave, that's how it has been and it will always be.
Sometimes it's attention and affection,
Sometimes it's lust and sex,
Never feel someone is giving you something for free
Remember it always has a price
Today or tomorrow that person will come to collect their dues
Never forget that.....
- Ananya

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After everything is over
You come and say it was all fake
Every deed was fake
All emotions were fake
Technically two years of my life was fake
How do you expect someone to react ?
People tell me I should be happy about it
That it was just two years instead of forever

I am still trying to figure out.....
If I should mourn the two years
Or be happy that I avoided a lifetime of fakeness
- Ananya

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All I feel is as if I have been stuck in time
Going on and on in loops
The same thing repeating again and again
Different people filling the shoes of the older characters
A circle of damnation, of faults and mistakes
How do I take myself out of this ?
How do I stop from hurting myself again....
Cuz that's what's gonna happen if the cycle continues
Cuz that is what's supposed to happen, just like last time.

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Another year passes by without any change
Everytime I decide no this is it
No more crap
But there it goes again

Lost count of how many people left
And how many came in new
Also can't seem to count the number of people I need to remove
But here we go again
For another round of new

New dreams and hope
New drama
New promises to be broken

Just one thing has changed
The enthusiasm is a little less than last year
Spending new year alone for the nth time
Happy Life
- Ananya

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I couldn't really ever deal with the
hot and cold personality of some people
without doubting myself and my
lack of judgement on still having
such people in my life.

Or else
how could I describe
my self harm tendencies.

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I always have something to say
Always a thousand words
Waiting to burst out of my head.

Never has it been that
I am at loss of words
Loss of expressions and emotions.

Or maybe there are just too many emotions to count
Too much going in my mind
That I am numb, almost feeling blind.

I haven't decided if I am happy or sad
Or maybe just too overwhelmed
To take a stand.

Stand for my emotions,
A stand for my words,
That I seem to have lost.
- Ananya

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The biggest downfall for humankind isn't love,
It's all the expectations
we hold out of a person
Expectations can only lead to disappointment,
never fulfilment

Hold expectations from anyone
And it will be even harder to find happiness
Ever.

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