If only that time I had more hope in myself,
If only I would've run for that,
Just lay on my bed, listening to songs,
I wanted peace in my mind, but the reality is hellish,
Leaving everyone, just living alone in my mind
The fire in me burned again, Feeling calmness in my mind
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I'm following my way, and overdose
This night is so lovely, just want to sleep
The fire in me slowly relinquished
I'm Becoming more solitude than ever been
Listening to music, like I won't be able to listen in future
Leaving the world behind or I'm staying behind
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I don't know what's wrong with me
Will I stay forever here, in this shell of mine
I want to come out but he comes out with me
He controls me and I always get scared of myself
The overwhelming anxiety in me still changes me
But I'm still calm
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She calls me at night
She says - she wants to play
I was also high at that time
Fall for every trap she sat
She bit every part of my body
Then I did the same-
She always tries to move on
From the horrors, she was feeling
She holds herself in the dark corner
You know how it's feels
When you want to do something
But scared of some things
Some lose their sanity
And some transform into a beautiful melody-
Sometimes I feel like hate is coming out of me
And it's hard to control
Feeling like sucking up someone's soul..
Making them realize that they're nothing
Then beat them up to the death
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When someone takes action for the sake of another...
Even the purest-hearted person can turn completely ruthless
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It was too much to feel, it was like my breathing will get out of my body, and it was hard to breath
I was screaming and begging-- but _____________
But that's the beauty of it.. if it was that easy who would give a shit? we all just sit and will do nothing.. We will have nothing to prove.. Of there's no loss.. Then you won't be able to move on...
Thankful for the lows in your life.. it makes you do something different-
It was too much to feel..
Like an empath can feel other's emotions..
Like narcissist who can ruin everything..
Feels like many people were loudly trying to say help in the silence..
But I was just running..
It was terrifying..
So I tried not to feel anything..-
Pain is your friend
And pain is your ally
Pain tells you when you've been hurt
But you know what's the best thing about it
It tells you that you're not dead-