Happy and bright faces around,
Everyone laughing out loud.
I try to do the same,
If I would not, that will be a shame.
I wonder,
Can anyone hear the silence in me?
I smile so wide for that perfect group picture, My inner self wanting to leave at this juncture!
I bid my friends goodbye
Saying" For the next time, I'll try".
I returned to my room,
Straight to bed with a sense of impending doom.
Finally taking off my fake mask,
Mixing with people, too big a task!
I fight with my insecurities,
Haunted thought of the past
and failures of the present.
The anger, the hate take over my mind
The struggle within, one of a kind.
The night witnesses my tears,
Bringing me little peace.
How overpowering are my fears!
Me hoping them to release.
Although silence ravages my soul
But it comforts my hidden demons.
For I know no one will understand,
So I shall just continue to pretend.
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