Sometimes, how long you wait cannot be measured in numbers!

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And it's because you think you won't be able to achieve it,
a part of you will never believe you deserved to achieve it.

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Every next flower can't bloom & spread fragrance in your garden.

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समाज ऐसी....
गहराइयों में दबा हुआ है,
जहाँ से उसे
भीतर के दरवाजों में भी
दहलीज दिखती है....!

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I always have a part of you in me!
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While listening to my favourite songs
I imagine one earbud in your ear one in mine.
While eating something favourite
I imagine fighting with you for the last piece.
While laughing at something funny
I imagine us laughing at my lame jokes.
While walking in the rain
I imagine you smiling at me.
While crying at something stupid
I imagine you hugging me and trying to make me laugh.

No matter where I am, whatever I do
A part of me always thinks about you !!

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There is a broken clock here that still shows the time.
I remember memories of being called Mowgli, of growing up
reading and watching this classic. There's Bhageera, the black panther because of whom my favorite animal will always be a panther. There's Akela, the leader of the pack and there's Baloo, the joy and wisdom ridden bear. But the most fascinating thing was how the jungle came alive. How it was a living breathing being. And there was Sher Khan and he was hell bent on not letting Mowgli get accepted in the pack or the jungle. In its essence the story was about how Mowgli tried to fit in, both as a wolf and a man, as an animal and man. Maybe he was neither or both.

In the end that is what our stories will be about, did we belong or no. Were we loved or no.

We all have a Mowgli inside us, mine is just a little more Junglier.

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हे परमेश्वर , मुझे शक्ति दो
कि मैं ठीक से सभी आयामों में बढ़ता रहूं
और साहसपूर्वक सभी परिस्थिति का सामना करता हूं |

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कभी चट्टानों की भाँति
अपनी मज़बूत उपस्थिति दर्ज कराती
कभी उन्हीं चट्टानों के मध्य
पिघल कर ख़ुद ही बहती जाती

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" मेरे कान्हा ज़िन्दगी में मुझे...,

इतना ही देदे तो काफी है...!

कि मेरे सिर से चादर ना हटे,

और पाँव भी मेरे चादर में रहें...!! "

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will you just stay for a while? no? okay!
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i feel like i'm losing myself everytime i scream into my pillow.
i hold back my tears not because i'm trying to hide them
but because crying is actually exhausting now.

my mind gets overwhelmed with self destructing thoughts
& i can barely remember even one of them.
my heart races as if it's a lion standing in front of me
& catching my breath is the most difficult task at the moment.

i've learnt to blame myself for everything
& unlearning it isn't as easy as i thought it'd be.

how did i even come here? i guess i'll never know!
i was happy, carefree, a lil stupid but i was happy
& now i don't remember those moments as my happy ones
it feels like i was ignorant to anything that hurt me.
do i wanna become like that again? no!
i know if i become like that again i'll lose myself forever
but i'm tired & self love is apparently not at all my cup of tea yet.

so will you just stay for a while?
& it's okay if you don't want to.

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