LIVING A LIE
It feels nothing is okay,
my mind is heavy even during the day.
Even the nights are burden to me,
overthinking inside me is buzzing like a bee.
Sometimes I am messy,
and sometimes so easy.
Now I'm just afraid of all i am,
My own feelings feels like a scam.
I don't trust anyone anymore,
Maybe it's because they destroyed my core.
I curse myself,
that why I expected anyone to stay and help.
They stayed..but for their needs,
now I'm aware of their deeds.
I don't feel like being with anyone,
just wanna vanish and run.
I'm sitting alone in a dark room,
telling myself to break all the threads of loom.
Tired of begging people to stay,
now it's time to let go of those who were faking like act play.
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