I NEVER KNEW
I never knew that I was weak,
Until I realised you were gone & I have to live.
I never knew that smiling was difficult,
Until I had to, despite knowing you weren't here.
I never knew that my heartbeats could talk,
Until I got to know they didn't talk without you.
I never knew that they wouldn't just beat but scream,
Until I understood they felt your absence in the surrounding.
I never knew that such pain really existed,
Until I felt it myself when something inside of me was breaking.
I never knew that living would feel like hell,
Until I got to know you were never gonna be back.
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