Sometimes the burden of guilt overpowers so much that it can't be explained in words.
You feel wasted. You feel bad for rushing over things that was million times worthwhile to you and you lost it to someone who doesn't mind losing you. You suddenly feel insignificant. And the guilt of giving away so much with no one to blame for your misery but yourself is pathetic.
This time it's not anyone else, I have to forgive me for being so reckless about life and I ain't a forgiving soul.
It's hard to let it go.
I knew exactly, precisely how it was going to be but I was adamant..I knew I would toss my everything and yet lose. I knew even if I didn't give any of me I would lose. And I gave it all, and lost.
#You didn't deserve any of me, my best, my worst and #you are the man who shall be in my breaths of hatred for a really long time till I forgive myself for giving myself to you.
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