The ocean I fear
Is the same enormity I want to indulge in
I'm drowning but I don't call for help
If I stay, I will only die in it's arms
I need to swim to the shore
But what living would it be
An unabaiting load on my chest
This longing for the ocean never quiets
I'm frightened of losing sight of it
Knowing I have to walk away to survive.
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