Grailing to end my existence
I'm alive... Am I alive?
Arms of my reckon solaces me.
Solaces me for intoxicating me..
Tell them I'm alive..
Sparing with my mind..
Losing my ethics ,crossing my line..
No I'm still alive...
I'm not allowed to feel my woe...
Shun my sweat and pain in toe..
Sense of time but I'm feeling low..
But I'm alive...
Even if the pulse is parted from me..
I will sing my death and feel alive..
The air in my tone will glare my fright.
The fire in my bones will grant me light
To make me feel, I'm alive..
Even if earth has swallowed me..
I'm asking you..
Am I alive???

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Life is best lived when
you're neither worried about past
nor anxious about future,
you're just happy for one gifted day,
that's today.

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Its not the future you are afraid of,
Its repeating the PAST that makes you anxious....

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"No no, I am not nervous at all talking to you....it's just that the floor tiles are really cute."

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/.. some nights,
I'm just anxious,
to know about
things going on
in your life,


while,
In others,
I'm much desperate
to be a
part of it../

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I held my breath
For far to long
Now it's time
To breath again

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A dark tunnel looms inside my chest
as I feel the void creeping in
gnawing its way through my stomach;
I cower onto the floor
crawling relentlessly to the corner
blending with the shadows on the wall
cast aside
desperately trying to plug the ears
and interrupt the voices in my head,
wishing to breathe no more.

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No
I'm not asking to have
my pain disappear
I just want it to not
Be full force so
I can breathe

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I want midnights
in my palm
and stars in my eyes
to become yours.

All I wish for is serenity
A calm flow of blood
And steady heartbeats
With a million dollor worth of coffee.

Maybe calmness is a virtue
Our anxious souls have forgotton.

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if you’ve ever fallen asleep crying.
if you’ve ever checked yourself out in the
mirror after crying to make sure you looked happy. If you’ve ever been caught completely zoning out, if you’re afraid for someone to ask you if you’re ok because you’re afraid you won’t be able to look them in their eyes without crying. If you’ve ever felt your heart ache with that lump In your throat making it hard to swallow. I’m sorry..I’m so sorry people can make living such a painful experience. I’m so sorry that you feel so deeply yet they can’t. I’m so sorry that you have to pretend like there Isn’t anything wrong. I’m so sorry you feel alone. I’m so sorry for every time you came last and others came first. I’m so sorry no one even notices the sadness in your eyes. I’m so sorry for everything no one ever apologized I’m so sorry that you live life just like me.

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