Meri bewasi meri ye kalam se pucho
Meri lachari us gore kagaz se pucho
jis par rozaana ye kalam chalti he
aur aakhir me roz ki tarah usdin bhi use phaar ke phek diya jaata he
meri nakamyabi ka haal us fati diary se pucho
usse pucho ki kis tarah
ki kis tarah uske panno me kisiki khubsurti ko utaarne ki koshish ki jaati he
ki kese kisiki khilkhilahat ko un panno me rangne ki koshish ki jaati he
ki kese kisiki julfo ki saaye ki thandak ko un panno me bharne ki koshish ki jaati he
Aur aakhir me us se ye bhi poochna
ki kese meri naakami ke karan
uska ek aur panna phaar ke phek diya jata he
meri haar ki tadaad us kuredan se pucho
jis par har roz ek fata hua kagaz ka tukra aake girta he
Haa nahi ho paata mujhse, haa hor roz haarta hu main
aakhir tu hi bata ki tere in aakhon ki nashe ko ek diary me kese kaid karu main
ki tere is khubsurti ko ek gore kaagaz me kese utaaru me
teri is khilkhilahat ko ek fati hui diary me kese simtu me
ki teri is khusboo ko ek kalam ki siyahi se kese baya karu me
har roz meri ye koshish nakamyab hoti he
kahi dino se rozaana yahi dastan hoti he
meri bewasi tum kya samjhoge
meri lachari ka haal meri is kalam se pucho
meri bewasi meri is fati diary se pucho.
जीवन के मेरे फलसफे
कुछ अच्छे तो कुछ बुरें।
लेकिन जब से तुमको चाहता हूं
तुमको कुछ ना कह पाता हूं ।
तुम्हारे सैंडल और चप्पल की डर से
दिनभर घुट घुट कर मर जाता हूं।
हर रोज नयी उम्मीद,उत्साह के साथ आता हूं
लेकिन फिर भी कुछ ना कह पाता हूं।
अब समझती हो
कैसे मैं घुट-घुट कर जी पाता हूं।
Three years ago, I dropped out of the course of Bachelors in English Literature and Psychology to shift to a completely new city and start my own company.
In these years, I have learnt to be more patient;
that being impulsive or too emotional doesn't help;
that time is a crucial aspect of our lives and we should learn how to manage it.
I'm constantly trying to expand my understanding of human needs and I'm trying to be more tolerant and supportive of other people. With my friends, I always try to create the space where they can share anything without being judged or misunderstood. In other words, I try becoming the friend to them that I have always wanted to have for myself.
I have learned the value of saving money and understanding the importance of getting quality over quantity.
It has been a tough journey for me because while I was learning all the nice things I just discussed, I was also battling Clinical Depression, Suicidality, and High Functioning Anxiety. This whole of 2017 has been so hard because it was the rock bottom for both, my personal and my professional life. But I'm learning to acknowledge the way my body reacts to different emotions and feelings. I'm trying to understand myself better.
This is why I have chosen to use my platform of poetry to raise awareness about the challenges of a bad mental health. We all face these challenges, but because there’s no proper place for expressing those issues, we keep them inside us and it keeps on becoming more and more toxic.
I have decided that it is enough.
And so do you.
No matter what our illnesses tell us, we matter.
And I won’t stop till every person facing mental health issues realises this.
So this is me, Aafreen.
I love the way wind feels against my face when I'm standing under the Sun in Winters.
I love tall, conical trees because I've always imagined a home with those trees around it.
I love the smell of old books and by instinct, I always pick up a book, feel its spine, and open it from the middle to smell it.
I lobe strawberries and cooking continental food.
The love of my life is a chef and I couldn't be more proud to have him support me through some of the worst phases of my life, because I'm fortunate enough to fall in love with my best friend. Each day, I'm grateful for his existence in my life because he has taught me that good men exist and that I can have one in my life without begging the lord.
I randomly stop at sidewalks to absorb the view in front of me.
I love vines and tendrils wrapped up on fences. It makes me feel the power of nature; that it can outgrow all the hatred and boundaries we humans put against each other.
My favourite flowers are Peonies,
and in my life, I wish to meet a Panda once.
I love Huskies and I admire people with strong will.
I'm a spoken-word poet,
trying to change the world,
one broken verse at a time.