Easier

Thoughts of you revisit my mind.
It is not easy thinking about us together.
It is harder still thinking about us apart.
Questions of why and when it changed.
If you were here, answers would be easy.

But you are gone.

Not to return to me, us

Taking my thoughts under control
Breathing easier as thoughts dissipate.

Susans Soul...

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The Story of Depression

I am brought low within
Depression
Distraught and alone
Isolation
Though alone, feel lonely
Limited speech
One syllable words only
Frightened
This might never end
I am brought low within

Susans Soul...

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Nine Times

Nine times I tried to love you.
Nine times I forgave you.
Nine times you hurt me again.
Nine times I prayed you'd change.
Nine times you stayed the same.-
Nine times you proved me wrong.
The tenth time I left you behind.

Susans Soul...

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Mirrors Mirror Mirrors

Life mirrors inner soul self.
Life mirrors lead us forward
toward life dreams, hopes.
Sidetracked we mirror our
confusion, utter lostness.
But if we learn from our
loss, we can recenter and
find our mirrored path again.

Susans Soul...

#yqbaba
#MirrorTalk

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Anne

How I miss your warm smile
and your sweet, sarcastic judgement.
I pray that your sweet judgement
has turned to honest acceptance
to match that lovable, sparkling smile.

Love you and God Bless,
Susans Soul

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Your Eyes

I look back through the mirror
and see you watch as I drive away.
I will never forget your eyes
looking at me with loss and pain.

I wish to see your eyes bright blue,
but what I remember is your loss.
Your eyes reflect a moonless night.
What I remember is your pain that
you attempt to hide from everyone.
I know you too well. I see your pain.

We grew so close that we shared
our thoughts and memories.
But time passed and we grew up.
Our together turned to absence.

But I will never forget your eyes.

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Chance Encounter

As you enter our room,
you take command of
our destiny, our future.
I am in awe of your
strength and stature.
I let you lead to the bed
where we consumate
our love first seen.
With a chance meeting
and one encounter
you become Captain
of my future, my ship.

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Godly Appearance

Your face shows etched lines of grace.
Your movements magnetize my eyes.
Your demeanor envelopes softness.
You compassionately touch those near.
Your character is truth and authenticity.
Your smile can light candles in a cathedral.
To be touched by you is a gift to my being.
You appear and Angels sing in harmony.
This is why I love you deeply and soulfully.

Susans Soul

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Choose

Expecting is such a pregnant word
while reality is part or not of the word.
Determination sets our expections
to play within the fence of reality
or the unrealistic expectations of
dreams own unfenced confinement.
You decide which is your folly.
Life and living give you your choice.
Choice brings with it consequence.
Telling your expectations through
Tinted glasses escapes reality.

Susans Soul

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Not One

A shadow of a smile crossed her face.
Eye sparkling blue, but sad, empty.
Others said, "Such beautiful grace."
They saw it as a gift to her beauty.
The young one quivered when
touched, but only she was aware.

Why would such a graceful child
not welcome innocence of touch?
Not one person questioned her.
Not one was sensitive enough to
know her need for protection.
Not even one...

Not one...

Not one...

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