Few Snippets of Mine
Chapter: Problems, You and My Being
Part 2— % &1. "So when can we meet again?", was something I wanted to ask you but you were angry and I didn't know how to say to you anymore of how I cannot be there where you want me to be. Some things do not happen. Some things are hard to accept. For instance, being in the same city as the person you want to meet and you cannot meet. Something just falls away like a broken twig. Only if the person watching the falling twig understood why it broke.
— % &2. I was more than happy to meet you, especially now that you were in the city we both wanted to be. But something changed inside of me when you called me something I never thought you would. Despite our conversation happening after a long time I thought you would understand. Because at the end of the day I knew who I was talking to. I was mistaken though. I don't know if I spoiled something. I don't know if I broke something. But I do know I picked up that call that afternoon being driven by a lost emotion. They say you shouldn't make decisions based on emotions, and I rode on that emotion. — % &3. It's not strange or surprising for me to see that we are attracted to each other and the possibility of us exploding also leads to cases undefined and indescribable. In the room where red lights speak, there is a possibility of silence to turn into moaning. But then, as analogous as how I walk on the desolated road to my home after work, invisible to everyone, your words from that text made me recall that journey. Made me rethink why I picked up your call that day. Made me see the reasons why you shouldn't take decisions based on emotions; I was gone. Vanished. Away from your life. Now, after I hear all this as a ball is put into my court, it makes me feel I broke my own rule and committed a mistake, yet again.— % &4. I saw your call when I woke up late this morning. You were leaving Bengaluru, I recalled. I don't know why you dialed me but I think you passed by the place where I live.— % &
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