She still wears the friendship band
which you gave .

The girl that she once was ,
obsessively in love ,
with maddening theories
about forevers and soulmates ,
and thoughts of fire and passion ;
that girl is gone .

The girl who fell in love with you
died in lonely nights and empty streets
When the cold winds blew all over
she shivered till her heart was frostbitten
Her voice echoed your name
but you couldn't hear those cries for help .
Where were you , when she needed you ?

The girl you fell in love with
died in nights when you weren't there .
I'm but a grave standing in her place
I'm still wearing the friendship band
which you gave .

But your lover's gone
and grave don't love
I just wish the friendship will last long .

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Maybe
I'm not going to breath for long
I'm trapped in this cage
This curtains , this ceiling , this carpet , this body ;
everything's burning away .
I type out a last mail
"Save me .The house is on fire"
I have no one to send it to .
Who will come to see me burn to my bones ?
My absence won't be felt, my presence never mattered .
I was about to shed some blue blood and
break through this mortal cage .
But now, everything's burning down .
As I die here , I want someone to shed a tear
I want someone to know who died in this burn .
I want someone to know the legacy that ended in flames .
I reach out for whoever might pull me out
of this suffocating feeling of smoke and uselessness
Nobody comes .

Nobody comes to keep me safe .

Inside this house which looks like the realms of fire god ,
my bruised limbs take a stand .
I'm on my knees and palms , waiting to be saved .
My head's heavy when I stand up again
"I gotta get out of here..I need to live.
So what if no one's coming ? I will save me
I'm enough" , I say .
And now I'm running in this palace of fire
Maybe
I'm not going to breath for long
But I'm no longer trapped
I broke through my cage .

/ I got wings of fire /

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Love me .
Now .
Now when I'm not smiling
Now when I'm in rage , when I'm a rebel ,
when I'm all broken and burning .
Don't be afraid of me .
Don't Run away . please .
I might scare you away .. But please don't go
Stay .
Stay when I'm faking the joy .
Stay when my heart's aching with pain
Stay after I'm done fighting .
Stay when everyone else has left .

Love me
Now
Now when I'm ugly and sick , when my skin is in flakes ,
Now when my eyes are all swollen ,
Don't hate on me now .
Don't look away now . please .
I might not look pretty..But I'm unfiltered
I'm not pretending now .
So stay a little longer .
They're all hating on me now .
All of them . I'm fighting against everyone .
I'm not one of them anymore . I never was .
Make me yours .
I wanna be your type .
I wanna be included . Somewhere .
So please
Let me be .

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Very well ,
give her the dreams .
Tell her that outside this cage in which you've trapped her , there's a huge sky .
Tell her the universe is waiting for her to smile and shine .
Sharpen her claws , brush off dust
from her wings which have never flown .
And when she looks at you with love in her eyes ,
shatter her .
Make love to her then leave her .
Put her up in the pedestal and when she falls
Mock her .

Believe me she'll rise again .
Through everything that you've put her through ;
she'll rise above it all like a phoenix from ashes
and she'll forgive you .

That day
you'll know strength .

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// My Octobers Without Her //

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I'm coming home
To you
In this burning train .
Everybody's boiling around me
All the particles that made this body
Are slowing losing integration .
To be trapped in a mayhem as me
Now this burn feels like liberation .
All of me wants to get rid of me
and escape into the universe in parts
And one part still wants to be stuck with you
I should think about all that mattered while I was living
But I'm thinking about you .

You'd be waiting in the station
To hold these hands
To make love to this skin tonight
But only ashes will reach you .
Would you love me then ?
Cause I'll be loving
you .

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....

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/ Two Un-Beautiful People /

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You made a murderer out of a girl who loved sunshine



/ READ IN CAPTION /

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When I'm sad
The diamond ring
is made of
Glass .


When I'm happy
The diamond ring
is made of
Ageless human existence

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