This is one of those peaceful nights,
When I don't care if I lose, I will not fight.
I will not untangle but break every knot
That I've held so tight, without a second thought.
This is one of those melancholy nights,
Where I'll stay still even if I see the light.
When I believe that falling is like flying,
I'm just touching the ground, not the sky.
Tonight, I want everything or nothing,
I will not settle for something.
This is one of those nights when everything is calm,
I can let everything slip away, but I won't close my palm.
Tonight, I can watch the world burn and not even blink,
I will let myself drown, and I will not even try to swim.
Tonight, I embrace the chaos, which still feels soothing,
I am okay with numbness; I refuse every feeling.
I don't desire anything; I want zero or infinity.
Tonight, I annihilate or pioneer, nothing matters to me.
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