আমি যে দেখেছি গোপন হিংসা
কপটরাত্রি-ছায়ে হেনেছে নিঃসহায়ে,
........
তুমি কি তাদের ক্ষমা করিয়াছ,
তুমি কি বেসেছ ভালো?


I've seen secret jealousy hiding
behind the shade of deceitful night,
destroy the helpless soul.
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Have you forgiven them, dear God?
Have you loved them at all?

- Rabindranath Tagore

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At first you're scared to step in, then you do step in, then you fall, then follows cries and devastation, and then you start enjoying the battle.— % &

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Can you belong to a place even when it doesn't want you?— % &

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There's a time when we are in what I call the Valley of Love, when you are ready to bend backwards for them, when you are willing to do things against your better judgment, all for the sake of love. And all so because they seem trivial in front of what you are receiving (feeling like receiving) at that point of time.

It takes a big shock to pull you out of the valley. You do not want to get out of it. So, petty wrongdoings don't even catch your vision for it's blurred with love-tinted glasses.

But once you get the shock, feel humiliated, see the depth you've fallen to, more than the other person, it's yourself that you're disgusted with. You cannot identify with yourself anymore. The insides churn. You either sleep entire day or do not sleep at all. You eat either too much or do not eat at all. Life appears meaningless not because you weren't loved enough, but because you had abandoned yourself in the process of getting loved. Days pass. Sometimes months. Or even years.

And then, one day, you get bored with the current state. You decide to get up. And rise. And shine. Like never before.

After valleys, come the mountains, don't they?— % &

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And one day, you shall thank the people
for not loving you back.— % &

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1. Trust your gut.
2. Certain things are better left unsaid.
3. When vulnerable, treat people as you'd do otherwise.

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Do not leave my heart cold.

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I'm tired of playing.

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I was happy in your friendship only.
We didn't need to get into love.
Yet it happened with no warning.
Now, we burn in love.
And even your friendship cannot put it out.

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Time and again you have to remind yourself
they'd do just fine without you.

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