I turn 21 tomorrow and I want to cry
I'm sitting on the bathroom floor
thinking if I want to die
My friends are knocking on my door, One is pretty freaked out
One of them gets it all, and tells them to chill,
It's very normal, she says as I sobbed my eyeballs out,
I want them to all go away, I swear I'm alright,
this is just a temporary thing, I'll be fine by tonight.
Let me just be alone, with my feelings
and my thoughts, I'll pull myself up, I promise,
I've just wondered how it would feel to be 21
Now that it's right next to me,
My heart is overwhelmed, I'm excited too,
but still I'm terrified. I texted them please go away,
I'm fine don't worry, I say
I got out after a while, somehow more grateful for this life.
I've got friends who care, and people who I love.
I turn 21 tomorrow, will be cooler than 20, I'm sure.
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