Every day I wake up dead,
Floating in the infinite space of existential dread,
Lying on my bed,
I light a cigarette.
Million of thoughts hurling,
Thousands of voices murmuring,
I feel like crying-
Out loud!
I can't afford crying.
I should better die,
Every once in a while I contemplate suicide,
And a moment later I deny.
Why?
Perhaps the will to share life with those I love(or I think I love) and those who love me outweighs all the pain and suffering life is otherwise filled with.
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