Maha Devan   (Maha)
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A nomad
Joined 22 November 2016


A nomad
Joined 22 November 2016
30 JUL 2021 AT 23:04

Maya,

I wouldn't assume you know what loneliness feels like. It's 10:26 on a friday night. There's no one here to over power the constant whirring of my fridge. I'm just tired. Of meaningless conversations. I'd rather lay on my couch, open youtube and put in on autoplay. It helps, kinda. You know that sinking feeling? When you've people around and still it doesn't matter. Doesn't matter how much you try, you're still going to be this person when everyone leaves? What's the point? I just want to cry out loud, alone, whole day, whole night. My beer isn't cold anymore and I've no cigarettes left. I'll try and get some sleep. I wouldn't assume you know what loneliness feels like. I wish you didn't.

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26 JUL 2021 AT 1:18

I too wonder, what has become of him. All that sheerness for love and hatred. He can't love anyone like before, same as he can't hate anyone like before. Love and hate are intertwined, believe it or not. Like a pendulum that stopped its course. What has become of him is as much a mystery as what would become of us if gravity is to stop working, if love/hate is to keep us from moving.

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7 JUL 2019 AT 0:16

Maya,

We become different people as we stop loving anyone. We lose a great deal of emotions that are very particular to us. What I lost when you left is, I don't remember how it felt like to be myself. I hope you found love again. I hope you didn't have to try hard. And I hope that when it leaves, if it leaves, you won't have to lose yourself.

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30 MAY 2019 AT 22:46

When in silence
I fear coming across
your memories.

I fear that if I do,
I couldn't come across
anything anymore
in that silence.

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30 MAY 2019 AT 22:28

I often
succumb to my heart,
that yearns for her kiss
despite the pain.

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13 JAN 2019 AT 22:24

Maya,

I'm trying to find a safe place. My insecurities have taken toll. Not a single moment passes by without me fearing, contemplating about things that may go wrong. I sit still for good 20 minutes after my dinner, thinking absolutely nothing. My mind goes numb, time and again. I take a walk after the world turns blind, to give it a try, to see if I'm capable of love again. It took me 8 days to write this letter, wondering if it's right to write to you, to bother you with my insecurities. I know you're doing fine. I wish you're.

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14 DEC 2018 AT 23:34

After all,
memories are just
a metaphor for pain
created by your gods
on a saturday night.

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8 DEC 2018 AT 22:26

The stories
I tell of myself
are often cloaked
with dreams
I wish had come true.

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8 DEC 2018 AT 22:14

It's relative
if you expect
love from them
in return
for your love
for them.

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8 DEC 2018 AT 21:48

I find myself in circles like
one find themself in circles
after love.

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