Jason Estes  
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Joined 8 October 2018


Joined 8 October 2018
26 SEP 2021 AT 15:06

POW of the United States' Longest running War...
The War On Drugs

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7 JUN 2021 AT 11:11

At this juncture of life my habits no longer define who I am
Struggles for sure, but looking back, I'm like, "Damn".
Would I be who I am today without the tumultuous storm?
As far back as I can remember all I ever wanted to do do was conform.
I want to be like you and fit into this society,
But hard as I may try, I can't help but be me.
I've stopped getting high, stopped committing crime.
I go to work every day so that Uncle Joe (Biden) can give you my dime.
I feel like I am doing my part to contribute to your society.
But for some reason I still place importance on notoriety.
Nobody gives a Fuck about the name I think I made.
Or the stripes I think I've earned or dues that I've paid.
Poor choices stemming from bad habits put me front and center.
Little 'ol insignificant me now find myself at the epicenter.
I wouldn't change it if I could. I am who I am because of these struggles.
Bad habits I've left in the past have filled my life with troubles.
But without those lessons there would be no growth or change.
To me its all been a blessing. To you this all may seem strange.

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7 JUN 2021 AT 11:03




good habits???

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27 DEC 2019 AT 20:32

Life's not so bad being part of the herd.
Like a good sheep I follow along, my life's no longer blurred.
The fog has lifted that once clouded my view.
The clouds now hang overhead - I clearly see what I must do.

Fifty-eight days now sober but nowhere near out of the storm.
Legal troubles bear down on me as my life I reform.
With clarity comes realization, there's dark days ahead.
There's consequences to pay but thank God I'm not dead.

Surrounded by so many sheep that blindly follow along,
With eyes wide open, into the storm, I rush headlong.



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22 DEC 2019 AT 10:24

I'm so tired of being judged for poor choices made in the past.
And thanks to the lies of cheating bitch new felonies I've amassed.

Trumped up charges because she lied to hide her shameful act.
She paints me as the bad guy and thanks to my past her lies are accepted as fact.

It's been thirteen long years I've waisted fighting to overcome.
Why carry on with this fight I'll never win? The past will always haunt me, It's pointless - I'm done.

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20 NOV 2019 AT 19:56

For as long as I can remember I've lived life in the fringes.
Life in the fast lane with wild women, alcohol, and drugged out binges.

Is there something wrong with me, am I a bad guy?
I'm sympathetic, loving, kind, and caring. I just like to get high.

So I don't fit the mold of what's socially acceptable.
Been told most of my life that my behavior is deplorable.

All my mom ever wanted was for me to get better.
Better than what? I'm a good man. Forget her.

All I've ever wanted was for her to be proud of me.
My intentions have always been good. One day she'll see.

I try to be responsible and to live life respectable.
But if I don't follow the herd then my behaviors unacceptable.

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10 NOV 2019 AT 11:03

I'm a citizen of a great nation in fact the Greatest on Earth
My rights were granted to me by God And are upheld by the nation of my birth
But this country I love Now vs. little old me
Great nation turned bully To pick on my personal Liberty
I don't stand a chance against This bullies power and might
In all her glory The world's in awe by her sight
I Respect the laws that govern the people in this nation that I love
And I can accept my due Justice for breaking the laws and I offer Penance above
But the bully has overstepped her bounds punitively attacking the one God gave to me
Putting her out in the cold all alone for crimes I committed ... how can this be?

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10 NOV 2019 AT 10:33

Love stinks
Just lust for the pink
Falling in love is fashionable
But that means no more pleasing one and all
Day after day the same ol' pussy ain't no fun
So don't let love commit you to eating just that one
Naw, I'm just playing there's nothing like making love when it's real.

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10 OCT 2019 AT 0:28

The Hero & The Rat

It could have just as easily been me, we both confronted that fucking lame.
But opportunity chose Jeremy to be sencelessly taken from lifes game.

We defended a helpless dog that we saw getting beat
The lame used his car, Jeremy flew 60 feet

I looked upon his mangled body as he took his last breath
The telephone pole had stopped his flight and swiftly brought death

They labeled him a hero and he sould be remembered as such
And I don't need recognition but we both stood for the dog we saw taking that punch

And I'll get a label too and lose the respect of those I call family and friend
I'll be covered with shame by my fucking label in the end

I was wiitness to a murder but still deep in the game,
Where reputation is everything - I spent decades making a good name.

"Snitches get stitches" they say, I never thought I'd become a rat.
By doing "the right thing" though, I now wear that hat.

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20 FEB 2019 AT 22:29

The Love of My Life

As I navigate the mayhem of which my life has become.
I reflect on the past for for guidance, I must stop doing what I've always done.
My own best efforts created this chaotic mess.
Inprisoned by addiction, life now ruled by a bitch called crystal meth.
To her I am nothing. Her goal is my death.
But me? Well, I love her, or so it would seem.
She comes before everything near and dear in this hellish nightmare of a dream.
Why have I done this and why can't I turn it around?
Enslaved by this bitch and no way out can be found.
And the insanity continues as I race towards my death.
Al because I fell in love with that fucking bitch crystal meth.

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