9 JUL 2017 AT 22:05

Scared of their staring,
Scared of their teasing,
Am I too fat?
Are my hips too big?
Is that girl laughing at jiggling thighs?
Is that guy eyeing my breasts?
My dress must be too tight.
My jeans must look ugly on me.
All my life I was taught that being thin is what I should concentrate on.
All my life I was taught that I was too fat to pass for beautiful.
Outer beauty over beautiful soul.
Bullies, relatives, family, friends,
The inner jokes, the teasing,
"It was just a joke, just relax be a sport"
Guess what it hurts.
To realise that being fat is not acceptable.
Being fat is a shame.
Love won't be received if you are fat because fat is ugly and people don't love ugly.
Nobody cared to acknowledge the person I truly am,
I am a fat girl
Yes I have big hips
Yes I have jiggling thighs
Yes I'm not thin and perfect and sometimes the dress doesn't fit right.
But I'm smart and funny and a good friend.
I'm not ashamed to be fat but I'm shamed for it on regular basis.
Body fat can be cut down
But the fat in mind that is what needs actual exercise.
I'm a proud fat
Proud of myself my choices.
It's time that you change yours.

- Janet