I want to but I am not okay
Simmering in a lot of pain
One little word and I break
This feels like a sick game

The me of yesterday was never okay
The me of today is more afraid
Countless stars in my galaxy
Don't shine so bright anywhere

My bed is full of tears
My legs quiver, my fight disappeared
My heart beats fast in my ears
Soon those pretty thorns show my fear

I want to keep running deeper
Till this pain stops chasing
But the end is comming nearer
All I see is waves drowning me inside

My eyes are growing heavy slowly
My lungs grasp for breathe sometimes
It's hard to just open my eyes
Wishing for it to get better I pray

I feel lonely and alone
I look around and feel trap
I want to push everyone away
So far away, so I don't snap

Why am I crying so much
Holding my unfulfilled dreams to my chest
Unable to say so much
I just want to be loved like the rest.

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Maybe the years were a lie
A dream clocked in despair
Reality turned morbid
And an end waiting behind those doors

Stop and take a watch
Take a look around the world
And when it gets hard
Take that reality and flip it into a dream

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I want the sun on my face,
The rain on my head,
The breeze in my arms,
And the smell of nature around me.

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being an ARMY

DASHI

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Cry a river
Rip a page
Wipe your tears
Let go of your rage
And smile at his loss

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A girl was walking by a house
It looked wearly and worn
The paint scrapped off
With broken hinges and loft

She stared a little longer
Her mind searching for an answer
Burning questions about the tenants
"Does it even matter?" Turning her head away

She walks a little further.
Sees a rope lying in circles
Tied up to a post
Travelling, Her eyes land on its host

A pool of blood beneath his feet
"Drip, drop, drip, drop" a consitent beat
Her eyes shook, stomach lurced
Seeing his eyes trained on her.

A maniac smirk caressed his face
"Such a beauty, a good chase."
Her heart beating fast, she takes a step back
Ready to run, from this hideous trap

Her eyes burn and she gives a blink
Suddenly she is standing along the gate
There is no boy, the reality sinks
"Was this all a dream !?" She thinks

She looks around and sees no boy
But spots the empty rope lying by
Fears consumes, she gives a scream
Standing behind the boy gives a gleam.

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Your knuckles turn white
And the pain turns to ash
Hold me like
The end of the world
And we are gonna drown
Hold me like
The fires burning
And we are going to collapse
Hold me so tight
That there is nothing more right

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" An evil mind is a choice, a good mind is a choice. Mistakes happen when you don't find a balance between the two. Life is long, keep searching for it untill you find it."

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An emptiness which burns like fire
Loneliness running deeper than blood
A hole more broken than a glass
And a love that will destroy us all

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She runs through the trees,
Sees the sun behind those leaves.
Trips on the jagged roots,
A scream echoes through the woods.

Autumn passes boldly,
Setting a fire dancing amber.
Then winter hugs her coldly,
Frostbiting her clamour.

A dark clouds engulfs her in,
A pause button to a song.
Teardrops shaped reminders,
Each one more sharper and long.

Thunder bubbles up her throat,
Water drowns her under the shore.
Every word a wish misspoken,
Stormeir woes of life that groans.

A steel cage traps her in,
Paralyzing her from within.
Scars and wounds start to burn,
Old bandages weep blood.

Every red hull of autumn,
Every white anger of winter.
Every sound rythmn of thunder
Whispered the silence of her emotions

Looking up the withered sky,
A broken star passing by.
She closes her eyes,
Wishing the sun to stop her plight.

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