Prompt : Second hand— % &When I was 13, my mom bought me a second hand cycle. She said, once I learn to ride confidently she will then get me a new one.
I remember the cycle's first owner saying stories of how she fell down from it while learning to ride.
When I started practicing, obvious that I ended up falling too. Eventually I managed to ride just as much that is enough to go to school.
But every time I miss the balance, I have this strong voice from within that I'm going to fall.
Regardless of whether I fall or not, the voice doesn't stop in a blink. It lingers for a while and slowly fades away.— % &
Cut to twenties - There's this voice again from within that says, I can never be a receiver and the void is my acquaintance. This thought too, lingers for a night or two before it could fade.
May be, we carry the beliefs that are developed out of experiences. We have strong stories to support what we feel is right.
Just like how I carried fear of falling in teens, fear of abandonment in twenties. They aren't the brand new thoughts. They had a story as an owner. In short, they are pre-loved by an experience.
Also known as,
Second hand thoughts.
I got a new cycle after learning to manage the second hand one. Shouldn't it have been the same for thoughts!?— % &
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