The night is too long to believe
that there is someone out there awake
just to talk to you.

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It's 2 a.m.
Most of the people in my timezone most probably be asleep
The ones who are still up...
You might be thinking about
future, the sad memories from past,
Some might be up some watching web series aur maybe playing a game
Ah! The most popular one chatting with the one... You know who.
What I do during this time.. Umm
I go on a search ...
A search for that one unheard song Or a song which I haven't heard in years
Which can make me go on for some days perfectly.
Then I have to find another one... To get me going for some more days.
The process goes on again and again.
You know it's a difficult task...
To find such pearls in present sea of music full of garbage.
There is one more thing left though...
That one person with the same music taste
The one with whom you don't have to pretend, you have no fear, who makes you feel whole.
With whom you can just sit quietly
Watching the stars
Staring at the blankness behind them
And listening to the gems.

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I really don't know what to say after texting
Hi! How are you, what's up...
And I will text that too only if you have texted first (not first every time but for the first time)
All I do is ... reply to whatever you say.
If we have never talked face to face (only texted)...
Don't even bother getting any acknowledgement when I see you in person in public .
I will most probably pass by you like a stranger even if we have texted for months.
I might want to talk but .... nah.
Well you are welcome to talk though...
But you can also ignore me the same way.
And if we would find each other sitting alone somewhere (with no one around)
We can always play a song close to us that we shared in our chats and not talk about anything.

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In order to add a bit to your life these days
You have to kill bits of goodness inside you. 👐

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One of the cruelest things you can do to a person..
Is to give him a song
and then leave him
To lead his life without you
With the song
Which would everytime remind him of you.

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The moon is bright today,
The cool wind is soothing too,
It's beautiful out here.
And I must tell you ..
It's not crazy to be out on the roof on a winter night
Leaving your lesser cold room
And calling it peaceful .
Isn't it the way how being alone works.
When you are already feeling alone in a crowded place.
And then you go in search of a place
Away from people
Where you can be lone
And will not even have a chance of finding someone
who can drag you out of it.
Maybe the condition seems harsher
But it's peaceful 👐.

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Most of the time I am just soo deep like you show me the night sky.. And i will tell you ..how you stand out like the moon between countless sparkling stars. I will be the kindest, selfless, best company you ever got.
On very few random days I just want to be shallow, I don't want to be kind, I don't want to be good, I want to be selfish..to just give myself some worth which I break to null every other day trying to be the selfless one .

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I don't know how not replying to people makes you feel cool, like seriously people brag about not replying on time. I get it when you are not in the right phase of mind, I get it when you just need some time alone. I respect that. But some people are just so lost in their delusional world they have made ignoring people the new cool. And now look at you so cool, so important, so proud on yourself , so delusional, so fucked up not even replying to people who were with you always. Still the first one to post I am there for you if you need to talk. Yes, sure you are there, sure you will reply , ya sure people will wait for help in your chat box till you decide to text them back after hours, days, weeks.. What does that make you feel like...God?

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I wanted to write about you. So, I picked up my diary and pen and started thinking about you...running my mind in every direction, choosing between hundreds of thoughts .
In process your smiling image came to my mind and i forgot everything...just the same way it happened when I saw you for the first time.

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Just when it feels like all the bad memories have fade away...
A bad memory just strikes our mind out of nowhere and stirs back up all such memories...
And we spend one more night struggling to sleep, wishing
We could have changed all that.

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