11th April 2023,

After ages, felt this is urge to express what all my body feel ..

Many times it feels like where am i going...or where life is going...emptiness feels like hollow in the heart...

But anyways

Goodnight

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Is that me who deserves all this...or i just earned it.....
It's your life ...do what u want to...but Also its our life...but everytime i have to ask for your time...
दौलत कम भी चलेगा
मगर,
फ़िक्र ज्यादा ख़र्च करना मुझपे
are u really busy...or just pretending to be busy...i guess you are not pretending...
You know i m not that kind of person who asks for everything...if u don't want to give your valuable time....i won't ask ...
Answer me....Should i leave this what we had...or have..
Or continue...
Should i just stop convincing myself that one day you'll call me and say...i m here..only for you and I'll be...And you mean that

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Is that me who deserves all this...or i just earned it...
Loving you is the only thing i knew but now...it doesn't feel like love...it feels like I've loved you deeply and you left me here, Alone,....
So i have to ask you something...i don't need the answer but i just want to ask...
Were u there when i needed you the most.?
Are u here ...when i need you.?
No, neither you were there i when needed you..nor you are here, with me...when i need you the most..
You have to watch movies...you have to play games...you have to talk to everyone ...but not me...

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Tera kajal lekar raat bani...
Teri mehndi lekar din uga...
Teri boli sunkar sur jage...
Teri khushboo lekar phool khila...

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सुना है वो जुल्फें संवार रही
आज फिर से मैं बे-मौत मारा जाऊंगा

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उसके चेहरे के सामने
तुम्हे भी कुछ सादा सा लगेगा
अरे तुम उसे एक बार देख तो लो
तुम्हे पूरा चांद भी आधा लगेगा

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Tired of this city ..these lights.. everything...
EVERYTHING

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Dear pain..
Will you just leave me alone only for sometime...
I need some rest...i know...we have this beautiful relations...and i can't imagine a day without you ...you are the only friend who stands beside me...when no one does...i know i m that downturned curve and you are the upturned one...i know together we form a beautiful doodle of infinity...
But please leave me alteast for someday...i need to take rest...to survive..to be with you again...

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For some nights
i just wanted her
to save me
from myself

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पलट कर फिर
आ जाऊंगा तुम्हारे पास
तुम देखो तो
मोहब्बत फिर वही करके

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