Awake...?

I know it's late.... I wish u knew so much but time did not wait... God knows why the the hell I'm texting u at this hour but I really miss you.. I miss everything ...been so many years apart but nothing has replaced u till date.. Ur awesome!! Just wish I could turn back time.. Too wake up from everything.. Or just to get over you n to get some sleep.. I drank a little to much tonight.. Ur all over my head.. I'm sorry for everything and today ... Thank you for all the good memories.. Stay awesome... No one can ever replace you in me...

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Wish upon a star up so high as it flows
Gasping for air while watching the stars glows
Counting every beat of my heart that slows
Holding on tight while your last breath blows

The depth of your words seems so hollow
Chasing your dreams on a path so narrow
Capturing your heart with a bow and arrow
Yearning to hold someone’s heart tomorrow

Don’t say anything because everything had twisted fate a little more
Be firm with what you say maybe girls will come by to say hello
Threatening burning flames felt right from the core
As I wish when you read my poems it will never be a bore

Writing up on a piece of paper that someone tore
Wondering why actually I'm up this late tonight for
Narrating an endless story with so much awe
Hoping this life actually doesn't end with a war

Seeking for someone who genuinely stays and not like the wind
Driving across the desert to seek what many yearn to find
So it literally shows that the love I'm proving need not to be blind
As long as one person could feel it through their heart and mind

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I have avoided everyone for you
In return
You have avoided me for everyone else

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I only closed my eyes every night to dream of you
Your eau de toilet caresses my thoughts and mind
In your voice that leads the blood to my head
Something that nurtures faith that sunlight dues in hours

Alone are just words but loneliness expels an emotion
Where destiny is un-narrated, fate was published
A fear on the outcome that might satisfy the reality
Love is only an emotion that is left to be compromised

Passing codes that denotes nothing but errors
Cold nights, thorning springs, sores in mattresses
Cursed routines, weeping shadows that yearns for love
Resentful hopes for love shall penetrate through darkness

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Being like a tenant who has been renting
Without any second thoughts or even regretting
Mistakes teaches us what we have been forgetting
Your ignorance showed a doubt what I least was expecting

My intention in the heart that now you bore
Because the pain that you've caused had no cure
Trying to prove to everyone that you’re so innocent and pure
A pool of lie that even stops a ship reaching the shore

Try living out of space without air
Your know that this writer has no flair
Quit thinking your thoughts are so rare
Remove that fake mask that you always wear

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Listening to many hearts filled with sorrow
Making their hardest decisions in life of whom to follow
It’s like been drowned in an ocean that is shallow
Biting hard on your tongue that makes it hard even to swallow

Returning everything that I never thought I borrowed
From words to actions that has conquered my heart so narrow
I was responsible for the words I said even when I couldn’t swallow
Look through my heart now why because it’s so hollow

What we shared was two hearts that became one
What was left was that one that has turned to none
Finding and amending the pieces that now are all gone
Whom to be blamed because there is nothing I had done

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❤️‍🩹 There is a part of love where it makes you sleep peacefully ❤️ and then there's another that brings nightmares 💔

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I AM HAPPY
BUT
I WAS HAPPIER

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Neither the prayers nor the pills have worked for me since my heart has shattered for you.
You stole my sleep, my romance conversations, and my solace.

Oh dear, I saw you as I closed my eyes and took a big breath.
My heart skips the calm when I fell in love with you for the first time, and it was all new to me.

My heart found calm as I fell in love with you for the first time in my life.
The breeze asks every day, and I'm sick of hiding from everyone about you.
Why do I feel that the stars are speaking to me about you?

The breeze asks every day, and I'm tired of teasing everyone about you.
My lips are now just singing your stories and tales. It's true. Oh, my goodness.

As I fell in love with you for the first time, my heart found rest and now rest at peace.

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I can't live without myself,
As I got you, I learned to live,
Now I wish this moment pauses,
stops, lives forever between us two..

I'm living more than ever before, because I'm attached to your heart. I've walked on your paths, you're my destination, and I've started stopping only at your feet.

There's a new style in your sight, and a new intoxication has dissipated as well; the cloud that had been tied for many days has opened only in your hair; my living is only in your limits; now you must go where, where you live; I'm that world, the one you live; I'm that surrounding/weather; because of you, I'm new; previously, I didn't say; now I've begun telling you.

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